“I’m having this abortion and it will be my secret that I carry
for the rest of my life.”
Molly When I went through my divorce, I didn’t know who I was anymore. So, I started making reckless decisions. I figured, who would want me? I have two children, I’m divorced, and I’m 34. I met a guy online and I knew it was going to be a physical encounter — I wasn’t looking for a relationship.
Two weeks later I was driving home, and something just didn’t feel right. I went to the store, I got the test, used it and it said, PREGNANT. I fell to the floor in my bedroom and I just sobbed. I didn’t know what to do. I had no one to tell because I knew that the second I told someone that I would be held accountable for my actions.
I called the next day and scheduled my OB appointment. At first, I was going to have the child, but after I talked to the father, I Googled “abortion.” And called the first number that came up.
Then I called my OB and said I was going to cancel my appointment because I’d decided to terminate the pregnancy. Within two seconds my phone rang, and it was her. “Molly, before you do anything, call this number. The program is called Alternatives. They will be there to listen. They’re not going to judge you with whatever decision you make. They will support you. Please, just promise me you’ll call them.”
So, I called them right after I got off the phone with her. This sweet, sweet woman answered the phone. I was hysterically crying and said, “I don’t know what to do.”
“I’m having this abortion and it will be my secret that I can carry for the rest of my life. And nobody ever has to know. I don’t have to explain to my children that they have a sibling who’s not from their dad. I don’t have to explain to my family that I wasn’t conducting myself with the morals and values that they had raised me with.”
The woman was so kind. She said, “Don’t write this baby’s story for it. Let God work through this child.” This counselor showed me the light in this program of Alternatives. And they walked through this journey with me.
Alternatives was my life raft. I was drowning without a life preserver, but this program saved me, and it saved my son and it saved the relationship I have with my other two children.