I didn’t know what the next step was going to bring, but I knew abortion was wrong and that I’d have to live with that… and I’d already been down that path before.
So I came to Alternatives very broken and wounded. I didn’t trust people, and I was pretty lost.
But the thing is, my relationships at Alternatives never changed based on how much of a basket case I was. Even if it was just to listen to me or to be there for me or to help me figure out other options.
For the first time in my whole life, I started to trust. I was able to just trust the process. That no matter what, people at Alternatives were going to be there for me.
They were just always there.
It was an up-and-down process. One day I wanted to keep the baby, the next day I didn’t, and then the next day I was going to adopt. It wasn’t until I was pretty far along that I decided that I was going to go along for the journey.
That was the Lord’s way of basically saving my life and helping me get my life turned around.
I know it sounds crazy, but in the midst of the fear and confusion, I started to just embrace it.
I learned to just embrace where you are because you never know that if you push through the fear, the frustration, the uncertainties and the unknowns, that what’s on the other side is just so beautiful.
I can’t imagine my life now without my son and what my life would be like without him and where I’d be.